A few weeks ago, I admitted on Facebook to actually enjoying funerals.
I had just attended Paul Pollei's. And it was an awesome funeral. He was 77, which isn't terribly long-lived, but he had lost his wife a few months earlier, and he (and she as well) had been suffering from Alzheimer's. His two children are fully grown, independent adults. It was easy to be happy for him that his dementia was over. My only regret was that the corner of the library honoring him, which has been planned for years, was not completed during his lifetime. I am not even sure it really matters anymore, because he was the one who cared the most about it.
Anyways, here is the program from Paul's funeral:
The music at this funeral was fabulous. The opening hymn sounded superb, but that was because there were hundreds of MOTAB members spread out in the audience. As you can see, the MOTAB sang an excerpt from Faure's requiem, which was something Paul Pollei had hoped for. The speakers were on the illustrious side; and the American Piano Quartet, of which Paul was a working member--he had not forgotten how to play the piano--until his death, performed. This kind of music does not happen at every funeral.
And of course, it was so interesting to learn about Paul's life--as a person, not just as a passionate pianist and academic. One story: when Mack Wilberg was a teen, his mom signed him up for lessons with Paul Pollei. And Mack HATED those lessons. First of all, they lived far away, so there was the boring drive there and back every week. And then there was just Paul's perfectionism. Mack felt very intimidated. So, after a year, he begged his mom to let him stop the lessons, and she gave in, though she was disappointed.
A year or two later, when Mack went to BYU, he was SO HAPPY because Dr. Pollei was on sabbatical that year, so Mack didn't have to even worry about running into him! Mack studied piano with someone else at BYU, but was actually pretty disappointed, and so he thought he was done with music as a profession. Then Mack left to serve a mission for two years. By the end of his mission, he was not sure what he would major in, but was almost certain that it would not be music.
Post-mission, Mack moved into an apartment with some friends, and was looking forward to Sunday, to check out the girls in the ward. He and his roommates went into the meeting and sat down, and Mack lifted his eyes to the front of the room--and there, looking right at him was his new bishop, Paul Pollei. He tried to avoid Paul after church, but Paul's eyes bore into him, and he made a beeline to Mack. He asked,"What are you doing with your life?" "Well, I don't know," Mack mumbled. "Are you going to continue your music studies?" asked Paul. "Well, no, I am thinking of majoring in something else..." "Be in my office at 8 AM sharp Monday morning!" Paul said.
And the rest, Mack said, is history. Paul became one of his best friends, they founded the American Piano Quartet together...and Mack is now pretty much a household name.
It was fun to hear Paul's son (a former colleague at the HBLL) tell about growing up in that home, with a mother who did costume design for film and television, and a father who was moving in classical music circles. Their upbringing was not run-of-the-mill, but they knew they were loved, and they knew their parents had testimonies of the gospel. It was a good life.
As I said, a good, interesting funeral with great music. Strong testimonies all around. Just uplifting and delightful. And though Emilie and Mark were not HAPPY that their father passed away, they were at least prepared for it--the dementia was getting worse, their dad could no longer do many of the things he had enjoyed, they knew that he would not be getting better in this life. So, while they were sad, as we all are to lose our parents, they were ready to let go.
In comparison, Dorothy Gillespie's funeral was today. And it was also beautiful and moving, but for me, just so much sadder. Her children had no preparation to lose her; she was there one day, gone the next. And while most of them are grown up, some are not. Philip still has a few years to grow up; James will come from his mission to no mother. That makes me sad.
And her grandchildren are so little! Three five year olds, three little ones, and a baby. Little Michael already only had one grandmother; now he has none. (Except for Karen, his great-aunt, who has been acting in loco grandparentis for his entire life. He is so lucky in that!)
I was five, almost six, when my grandpa Hancock died. But I was near the tail-end of many, many grandchildren. My oldest first cousin's daughter, his great-granddaughter, (Doreen : Karen : Eric) had her first baby about the time that I was five. These five year olds are Dorothy's oldest grandchildren. I hope they will be able to remember her a little bit, remember how fun she was, and how much she loved them.
There was fabulous music at this funeral, too, but much different than at Paul's funeral: our opening song was one of my favorite Primary songs. I am guessing it was one of Dorothy's favorites, too. And five of those sweet grand-children (Adam and Jamie; Emily and Ammon ; and Michael) sang I am a child of God. They sang it zestfully! They tried to see who could sing it the most exuberantly (Adam, I am thinking) and they smiled and sang their hearts out! Dorothy would have been proud!
We also had a piano number; Jodie's spirit-filled rendition of "Love at Home" was so beautiful and inspiring.
We got to hear stories about Dorothy: like the time she invited a magazine salesman in to have a glass of lemonade on a hot day, played a game of chess with him, and sent him on his way with a copy of her favorite magazine, The Ensign. Or the time that she and Diana stopped and gave water and treats to all of the workmen on a road crew.
It was a beautiful funeral. But I just could not like it as much as Paul Pollei's, because I just was not ready to say good-bye to her. I just kept hoping it wasn't true, that she would sit up and say, "Just kidding!" But, as Diana said, "Oh...it's true." So, lots of tears for a well-loved woman.
The room was packed. When her brother Ken spoke, he said, turning to the Stake President, KC Shaw, "Thanks for having Stake Conference at my sister's funeral." It was a very full funeral!
I am grateful to my daughter, Nancy, who gave me a list of things to do for the Gillespie family, because I am not so good at thinking of things myself. She suggested that I take them paper goods so they would not have to do dishes. She suggested that I volunteer to babysit. She suggested that snack foods for the kids would be useful--the relief society would bring meals, but snacks would come in handy.
So I took paper goods on Sunday, raiding my huge supply, and when I handed them to Michelle, volunteered to babysit. She said they would need babysitters during the viewing, so I said I would do it, and they would not need to worry about it. Since Josie is not home and Rosie had other plans, I called on Jolynn and Barbara to help me, and they generously agreed.
Jolynn and I arrived together, and one of the first things I noticed was that all the paper goods were set out, opened, and being used. (Good call, Nancy!) Jolynn had been chopping hot peppers before I picked her up, and forgot that some residue might be on her hands, even though she had washed them--she touched her eye, and was in agony for a good half hour. Even so, she played with children, figured out how to work the DVD player, and started to clean the house. Barbara arrived later, and then we did more of the same until Jodie came to relieve us when it was getting close to bedtime. It was a sweet experience. The service drew the three of us closer, and we kept looking for things we could do for Dorothy that she could not do for herself, taking care of her home and grand-children. I brought snack foods for the kids, and they loved the rainbow fish; I left more snacks behind, and I hope they came in handy at the funeral today.
So Nancy was right about the babysitting and the snacks, too.
I was so glad that I could be Nancy's hands, to do her list of service with the help of my friends, serving Dorothy, Michelle, Diana and Steve, all people that Nancy dearly loves. At the funeral today, everyone in the family thanked me--me, who would not have thought of doing anything on my own! Nancy deserves their thanks, for I was just being her hands. I can only say that it was my privilege. What a blessing to me to be able to be of service to them. Such sweet, obedient, cheerful children the little ones are. Such a legacy for Dorothy. I am sad they will miss getting to know her better. She was wonderful.